Are you ready?
The world is changing so quickly. Everything is happening all at once. All of our greatest fears of democracy and individual freedoms quickly becoming eliminated in favor of...this.
This burgeoning cacophony. This great big mess. A world where nothing we do will be private. A world where everything will be controlled so that we go about our daily lives to the whims of those in power.
A world without.
Are you ready for this?
It's not a world I recognize. It's not a world that I love.
Amidst it all, I find myself gazing off in the distance, thinking longing thoughts of her. Amidst the chaos, I find my mind wandering, looking for some faint whisper, looking for a brief reprieve from this madness.
Amidst it all, I find myself wanting to talk to her one last time.
But that's neither here nor there. I cannot allow myself to reach out to her. I cannot allow that contant to renew anything in me. I've made too much progress. I cannot allow myself to slip back now.
Where do we go from here? What manners of resistance is there left to us?
Perhaps I should give up thoughts of desire and expectations. No more desire. No more expectations. In Buddhism, it is said that these two are the greatest causes of suffering in life. We expect a just world, like the one we were promised as children. A just world, where the bad guys are defeated at the end of the 2-hour runtime. Unfortunately, that's not the case. I don't think it's ever been the case.
We are alone here. We are doomed.